I expected the therapists to "fix" me. That's what I was sent to the psych hospital for at age 15 with anorexia nervosa. And in a way they did fix that -- at least provided 11 months away from my family in a relatively safe place and I matured enough to the point that when it was clear that not eating was a deadend road I changed my attitude and behavior.
Problem is that I never had another clear idea of what I expected when I had other problems and went to therapy for answers or fixes.
I did the best I could. I think the therapy profession has some responsibility for making things clear if "fixes" are not really what they are about. And in my case, diagnosed 6 years ago with DDNOS or "narcissistic fragmentation", there really was a sense in which I needed to be "fixed". May be happening now, I don't know, time will tell.
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