This is the opposite of how I see this.
I do not choose to be ill. I fight very hard to be wel but often don't succeed.
I cannot distance myself from my illness but in controlling it I can succeed. If I distanced myself from it my self-care would cause me to fail at everything I haven't already failed at.
There is no way that doing anything but fighting against the bipolar is going to give me direction or stability.
Bipolar is not my friend nor is it something to seek out and enhance in any way.
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Originally Posted by Icare dixit
Ok, I might also elaborate. Here goes.
We can choose (as well as be forced to) to end mania, but we risk a very big impact on our sanity, bigger than if we'd continue.
We can choose (as well as be forced to) become depressed, going on without it, but we risk chronic insanity.
If we take the risk of having depression and mania, we might actually accomplish something we want to accomplish. If we distance ourselves from our emotions and don't want anything, we might have better chances of staying alive.
If we allow more of our manic-depressive behaviour into our personality (arguably/probably it is a choice you have to make early on), we risk being chronically dysfunctional, but we may have more direction and stability.
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Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily
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