I thought it would be easy to identify my issues and find solutions for them. I thought I knew everything that was wrong with me and that my T would help me fix all of those things.
I was SO wrong -- being in therapy has drudged up many issues and thought patterns I have, some of which my whole life, that therapy has helped me realize are problematic and hurtful. And there have certainly been no easy fixes. I was put on meds pretty much right away but it's been months and I still haven't found any that work for me. My therapy is coming to a close soon and I am so fearful -- it feels like I am so much worse off than I started. Although when I think about it rationally my T has helped me so much, it just feels worse because she helped me realize a lot of things I am struggling with that I wasn't aware of before.