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Originally Posted by cheshiregrins
Has anyone with DID ever experienced this or know a way to handle it?
I feel like I've only been in this world for the past year on and off, due to a combination of therapy and anti-psychotics, which have made me dissociate less. That's great and all in terms of recovery, but I find that when I'm in this world now (not dissociated), after almost 30 years of living in a dissociated state, I get WAY too overstimulated. I feel like before I was just watching life on TV and now I'm actually watching real people and am a part of it the real world. Again, I know it's a good thing in theory, but it's making me feel crazy!  It varies, but I often only last like 20 minutes at the mall. I can't make plans with anyone because I don't know how long I'll last out in the world. I usually just stay at home, other than work. Work is suffering lately because I work in a public library with LOUD kids. I get super irritable because I can't handle the noise. I've just been drugging myself with Klonopin to the point where I'm getting addicted to it and probably shouldn't be driving to work on the drug, but it's the only thing that turns down the volume of the world. Anyone have any insights? |
i don't have the issue of things being 'too' real, but i definitely understand being over stimulated. that varies for me depending on what is causing it and why it happens.
sometimes it is more a ptsd type trauma reaction where it feels like everything is coming at me, noises, brightness, etc. other times, it's random triggers like smells or i don't even know...sometimes it's social anxiety and not wanting to be seen/looked at (though that also can be linked with trauma stuff like paranoia)....and no matter what type though, it actually causes me to dissociate because it is too much to handle when it happens.
i also used to have agoraphobia along with the social anxiety, so anxiety and panic attacks, fear of leaving the house, fear of people/being seen, fear of being too far from home, etc. it was like the world was trying to attack me.
i went quite a few years with all these symptoms lessened, so it was interesting to have it things more normal. it varies now though depending.