You know you don't deserve to still be in practice. You are hurting other people at this very moment because of your incompetence and self-centeredness. Just like you hurt me. You are miserable. You won't even get help for yourself unless you already tried and they gave up on you. Is that it? Did your T give up on you? Did your T announce to the whole building your "problems" with _________and warn everyone to stay away?

When the industry finds out what you have done, you will be a has been.