I’ve had a few weeks now where Im just not functioning as well as I used to.

Last week I had problems sleeping and was down to 3-4 hours of bad sleep every night, and then on Wednesday 13th I got an email where I got a reply I did not want and I was completely broken down crying and not wanting to do anything anymore. I got a bottle of wine and sat down with Harry Potter movies to try to make the day better. Half a bottle later I am in the bathroom laughing like crazy and when I saw my own reflection in the mirror I was sure it was “the evil me from another dimension”. I managed to pull myself together, go and take my meds and continue to watch HP.

After Wednesday, I have been so tired and flat, i keep pronouncing words wrong and I sleep too much. Today I slept 15 hours. Its just get up, go to work, and go home to sleep again. I also worked all weekend.

I don’t know what I am feeling.
I guess I just needed to get it off my chest. And I’m so worried about losing track of reality again.