I had my last child 5 yrs ago & didn't work off the weight. After ea one it got harder & I just let it go resigned to the fact that I'm heavy.
I carry my weight everywhere, but of course it's the left over mommy belly that bothers me the most. I'm also short. 5'3".

Last month I wento the OB & got weighed. She checked it twice. I had lost 23lbs. I was really shocked. I didn't think it was that much. And although I think about my weight many many times a day I do little to get rid of it. It's a weight I should be kind of ok with. So for about a month I was happy.
Then I started to think.
I looked in the mirror & I don't really see a difference anywhere. My clothes r not that much different, just a bit so I guess I lost weight a little from everywhere Bec I don't see a difference.
My husband doesn't see it & no one has said anything to me. Even people I haven't seen for several months.
To me, this means I still look the same! Fat!

I like the change on the scale numbers but it didn't help how I feel about myself. Why! I should be happy about it & told myself I'd be happy if I got down into these numbers, but now the old voice is back saying well, you'll be happier if you lose another 20, then people will notice.

Sometimes I'm very happy with my body. I try to be confident w/ it & wear clothes that fit better & be comfortable about it. But now I feel like I'm back to square one of not being happy w/my weight or my size & it plays into my depression. I don't think I'll ever lose this belly!

Was this Bec it took me a yr to lose that weight & it was so slow that no one really noticed?
Why at my age (mid 40's) am I still concerned about stupid numbers on a scale. I've been that way my whole life & im still not comfortable with my body.