I don't check the time either. I kind of leave him to figure out stuff like that. The ritual we have at the start (with respect to how we get from the waiting room to the therapy room). His helping / prompting me to get going. His keeping an eye on the time. His cueing me in with respect to when it is time for me to regain my composure and reorient back to what I need to do that day.

I guess I'm overly passive when it comes to those things... A therapist of a different orientation would question my motivation or my taking responsibility for my treatment, I guess. I'm lucky that he doesn't question any of that. I'm lucky that he is happy to do all that. In fact... Sometimes he really belabours it. Takes quite a while to explain that the heating might go off and that he hopes that I won't get too cold (concern). Or takes a while to apologise that we need to be in a different room today and that he really understands that it might be hard for me and that I might feel disorganised and find it hard to speak. I personally think that he belabours stuff like that when I really don't give a %#@&#! about them. I guess it is that he is trying to show me that he takes the holding environment seriously, though, and that he realises how important it is to me. To the extent that it is even more important to him than to me lol. I feel a bit awkward about that at times... But... I guess he is showing me he cares, huh...

Hmm. A thought... Maybe he is trying to show me that features of the holding environment aren't about him so much as about the environment aside from him. So when his presence is freaking me out I can feel a little bit held by those environmental features... Perhaps...