i know i am full of questions tonight. lol! kinda wishing there were more people online right now, too. don't think i'll be sleeping much.

anyway, i was just wondering if this ever happens to other people, or if it's just my pattern. i've noticed that when things are really, really bad, i will fight off si urges several times a day. i keep on wanting to. i just can't stop thinking about it. then, i find that when things start to ease up a little, but are still kinda hard- for some reason that seems to be the time when i'm more likely to si sometimes. i tend to si when i'm calming down more than when i'm still freaking out.

know what i mean?