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Old Sep 15, 2007, 12:02 AM
freewill
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of course.. I didn't feel rejected by anything like that... a PM...
it is really about life... as a DID person.. about the secrets that of course caused me to be DID.. and that was abuse in my case...secrets.. have been and always will be my life.

It is about the rejection from my own family when they were alive - for having depression... the whole dis-owning that went with not putting on the "right" face for them always.

And you are right.. we will agree to disagree...because we don't feel the same way about the subject...and since it is opinions.. I can't really debate anything...

but I would not have put this post out here.. if I didn't want to hear from everyone...and how they personally felt.

Sometimes, it is about always having to have the "correct" face out there for my adult son... and I think above all.. we kinda want our family.. to understand us, love us, and support us unconditionally.. especially.. if we have always done the that for them.. and done it with grace and with love and with a great deal of sacrafice on our part.....

My eating disorder... was "even" notice the quotes - not accepted by my friends... in their opinion.. there is no such thing as an eating disorder... these friends that are capable of designing complex computer systems.. cannot get on the web and reseach "eating disorder"... do you begin to see where there is a lack of support in my IRL??
And I just needed them to understand.. because.. I went on disability.. and they were really hard on me about that..
I finally said to my best friend: "get on the web and research it"... but denial is everything..

So long story short... my opinion.. is that DID is not like everyone elses moods... my alters are not moods.. they are separate and complete compartments...not fragments.. not ego states.. so no.. I cannot explain it to a non-DID person..

Because when I do.. they compare it to a "mood".. and it just isn't.. for me...

love to all...(fw)