One of the things that I am struggling with in therapy is when they ask about how things make me feel. I just go blank. I can't think at all. I don't feel anything at that moment and I can't remember ever feeling anything. I don't feel much in life as it is anyway and I am unsure how much of that is not feeling it or me pushing the feelings away but I know that there is a lot of levelness (if that's even a word) and sometimes I feel bad. I have sent my T an email tonight saying that I really want to work on learning how to feel and what feelings and emotions are. Are they even the same thing? I know what the words are but I don't relate to them. Fear is the main emotion I have other than that levelness.

I have been looking online for ideas of how as an adult I might start to learn about these things but am drawing a blank really. I have found a workbook for kids but aimed at a slightly older age range which I think I will take next week and see if we can work through together. Maybe just having something there to prompt me will help and teach me that it is safe etc so that it might start to fall in place. I have seen a deck of cards in the US but they are really expensive including international shipping.

Does anyone else have this problem and have you or your T come up with any ideas which have helped.

Thank you