It sounds like you had a lot of doubts about your therapist that you never worked through with her. How long were you with her? How is your life going now? Do you need to see a therapist again? Before my current therapist, I saw a different counselor, with a break of some months in between. When I left the first counselor, I didn't realize I was leaving, and just never returned. If I had to do it again, I would not do it that way. I think I am missing a sense of closure with her. Maybe you are missing that too.