I have really intense gender dysphoria from time to time and I'm always struggling to cope with the immense feelings of dysphoria and disgust all at once. Most of the time I end of very upset to the point where death becomes appealing.

I'm trying to find a therapist in my city, but for the meantime I need ways to cope with this, and I'm still trying to figure out how to bring up the fact that I want to see a therapist to my dad. He usually dismisses my feelings or doesn't believe me. Annnd he still calls Caitlyn Jenner a man, so I don't have plans to tell him about the gender issue (I'd rather avoid telling him altogether).