I have some questions about interacting with other students at a university. Just the way I worded that probably indicates how different my thinking is.

I want to discuss this problem and try to find answers before it gets worse... I can't get along with other students. No, we don't fight, but I can't for the life of me interact with them.

It's a big drain on my self-esteem as well.

I can get along very cordially with other students, and they with me. However, even the most light-hearted and careless students act guarded and professional with me. No one opens up to me. It's rather sad, even when I try with them. I meet constant rejection. It's like an impassable brick wall.

I've already tried taking things slow and getting to know people. However, no one ever lets me be more than an acquaintance.

I feel so different than everyone else. The way I act, the way I dress, the way I talk, and what my interests are.

I'm getting more and more bitter about human relationships during the college years. Girls seem to get along with those who share the same insecurities. Girls who are in their level of "social power," with similar popularity and beauty. They usually know the same people and like to gossip about those people. I see students supporting and befriending those they literally are attracted to. Guys who are attractive get so much attention from women in the classes that their ego goes from humble to incredibly full of themselves. The same goes for women. And there's barely ever a girl who actually doesn't ego brush guys and act flirty with them, regardless of whether they're single or not. I see men ego-brushing girls as well, but they don't seem to get much fuller of themselves, but they tend to get a little more rude to the other girls. And then the circle of jealousy increases among other students. It becomes a boiling pit of sexuality and ego boosting. It disgusts me... It makes me not want to be there.

I don't go to school to make friends. I would like them... but I focus on what I'm learning and my far-off goals and dreams. I never lose sight of them.

I'm feeling more and more disillusioned about relationships in college. It seems to swing entirely around sexuality. I mean, I have a boyfriend, I have a sex life, but it's never been my focus.

For the older students, their classroom relationships tend to swing either around sexuality or ego boosting as well, but in a different way. I've seen older students hang around younger members of the opposite sex regularly, and give special attention to them, which the latter enjoys in an unusual social dynamic. Then they fill their ego with reference to the real-world work they've done, and mostly focus on money (probably the most acceptable thing to picky me).

Gah, I'm getting tired of it. I don't want to be around this pit of insanity anymore. Please, someone, tell me I'm wrong. Is it just the school I'm attending? Is it me?

How am I going to survive later university years? Can I get by avoiding this? I want to just avoid people and only interact with professors and people in my major's field.

Clubs seem even worse. At first people parade intensity in the subject, and I get excited to join it, but it always seems to turn out to be an ego boosting parade.

Is this how humans are? Yes, I'm human too, but I feel like I'm missing something, anyway.

Does anyone attending a university see this as well?

Yeah, I'm **** contemptuous, I know. Sorry.