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Originally Posted by TrailRunner14
Your reply has captured my mind most of this day. I've tried to reply with an answer but couldn't put it together. So... Here is what washed out in my mind...
My fears, I don't believe, are in feeling the emotion. I believe they are in response to validating the emotion.
When I'm triggered, it's usually numbness that I feel. In blind faith, I want to know and see the emotion that was there. I think. Saying that is kind of scary. Those things that you mentioned kecanoe to me seem to be moments of impact that created those feelings that you mentioned. There is a part of me that does not want to go back to the point that those were ??? What's the word
My mind, I think, just filters certain situations the same way it would have in the moment it was created and decides if it's ok to stay or not. Hope that makes sense.
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Absolutely makes sense. Reacting to situations today thru the filter of my past makes the emotions so much more intense, and then my mind usually decides to check out. Or that part, ego state or whatever. She checks out and another surfaces to deal with the emotion. And she usually acts on it as well.
Something that I am trying is to catch the emotional reaction and to have compassion for the part that initially suffered the hurt. My hope is that reacting compassionately will help me to stay present, And will help with the switching. Very different from the "don't feel" that I am accustomed to.