I went again tonight. Got some muscle spasms, so spent most of my time off the floor. I liked working some techniques at the start while warming up, but never felt fulfilled other than that. I did offer to come into the kids' class some days and help teach - I'm excited by that idea. Excited may be too strong a word, but I think it will be fun for a bit, anyway.

I don't know what I'll do. For now, I'll probably just wait it out a bit longer (like you suggested, Miguel's Mom). I don't really want to start any other hobbies - I find that I get really into something, then just drop it totally at some point (often in a depressed state). I get rid of everything, then spiral into guilt about how much it cost to buy materials/supplies/gear, only to quit and get rid of it all later. The guilt stops me from trying new things, because I figure it's a phase and a waste of money. I also am unlikely to try to find something where there are other people - I'm a natural introvert, and frankly I don't feel like I have the energy to meet and get to know more people. I have a couple of close friends, and that's enough for me. I think you're on to something, smallwonderer, about the anxiety playing a key role, too.

I do think it's related, at least in part, to the bipolar cycles. The challenge then, is how do I figure out if it's the cycles or if it's an authentic decline in interest. I can't really bounce it off my husband - he's very vested in the martial arts, in doing it as a family, and in trying to get/keep me engaged in hobbies/activities. I think he is uncomfortable with any moves that isolate me more or keep me from getting regular physical activity, connection with others, getting out of the house, etc. It's a good impulse, on his part, but I think it's partially fear-driven and would leave him significantly biased.