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What I am just begining to see at a gut level is just how much I live in a perpetual state of PSTD. Its like groundhog day, I relieve the past on every level and live in fear of the day because the day is yesterday and Ive not been able to see the reality of TODAY.
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Yes Mouse, this is exactly my truth also. It dovetails beautifully with my work on staying present, in THIS moment. Deep breathing, and meditating help. Deep thinking and analyzing don't. LOL
Did you ever see the movie, Groundhog Day with Bill Murray? Is that what you meant? I have often thought that I am like that character!!
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I was afraid of being afraid.
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Yeah, Perna, this is such an accurate description. My T said that he thinks I spend a lot of time figuring things out so they won't happen again. I told him that he was very perceptive about how I think.
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Thanks for weighing in on this and for your "two cents."
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I also love having early mornings to myself to process and cry if needed. Sometimes it's hard to allow myself the tears and sometimes one of my kids gets up early too and I can't be alone. So, I think I have to set my alarm even earlier......
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Not everyone who experiences the same trauma always develops PTSD
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I find this aspect of trauma so fascinating. We are each so unique in and of ourselves! We process our experiences each in our own way, also based on our past experiences. That's why each of our therapies is an individual prescription and there is no "one size fits all," no matter how much we wish there were. Thanks for your input. I have been working with T and take meds for anxiety & depression. Yes, I'm working on it.