Bud, your quote struck me powerfully, too. A central aspect of my existence, too. Something that I would think more in the therapy business would understand but apparently, in my experience, few do.

One of my typical defenses against the feeling of fear and powerlessness about any abhorrent reality is to try to "solve the problem", to "fix it". So with this, too. But, again, I am struck with my powerlessness.

As von moxie pointed out in another thread, there is healing power in being able to put words to our emotions. But it often seems to me that I don't HAVE the words to express the awfulness of my experiences in therapy. Or my existence sometimes -- devastatingly disconnected. (To reuse some words that you used.)