I feel like I am in a deep pool of sorrow and I am only treading water wondering when I will sink to the bottom and take my last living breath. I feel like I am in a world that I do not want to be a part of anymore but am stuck here trying to survive. My depression is deep today and for the last several days and I feel hopeless that things will ever get any better. I don't know if I can do this life anymore. Don't know if I want to be a part of this life anymore. I am tired of struggling, tired of feeling so sick inside like a thousand weights drag me down to the bottom again. I fear that I will never make it that my life is near its end and even more than that I almost wish it would end. I just don't want to be here anymore, I can't stand the pain and suffering anymore but what choice do I have. So I wait for death to reach me and maybe it will take me down gently and the pain and sorrow will end for good. I have no energy, no life inside of me. I already feel dead inside and it is only a shell of a body that continues to exist.