Thanks everyone, lots of useful insight and info here but a bit much for me to absorb at the moment. Time, trust, risk and acceptance. Yes, I think I can see that. Love is a whole other ball game for me. Breakdowns, I want to I think but not yet, only been two weeks with her. Need more time. Relationship, needs and intimacy are all on my uncomfortable list, to see or think about them all in one place is very off putting but maybe useful. Finding myself and what I want. Good question, well asked! Lots to think about over the coming months, lol.