it makes sense to me that with dealing with the past things that come up, it would end up bring things into the present that you aren't comfortable with. it's all part of healing even if it's really difficult.

i don't have a lot of trauma memories but still have reactions for them which is why the dissociation is in play and why things are so split off from my awareness. i don't know which others hold what part of what, if any do at all, though i'd guess they must given the reactions to some triggers.

for me, i am trying to focus on going through whatever at this point to try to process things so the triggers and emotional responses can lessen and hopefully bring me to a place where things will be more level again.