Hi d.o.a,

Maybe just a little of this is the therapy helping you more deeply examining your emotions/feelings/yourself/the things you could be doing.........???
If so that needn't at all be a bad thing, that could actually be an aspect of progress, and it's SO CLEAR from your amazing insight in your thread (and previous one's!!!) that you are making real progress............so KUDOS for that!!
It's more a problem with the intensity/frequency of these thoughts though, right??
And maybe they're triggering or triggered by a little insecurity, defense mechanisms going into overdrive, anxiety or.............??
Maybe throwing some mindfullness, a little meditation, some relaxation techniques, mantra's to block the thoughts (depending on the situation at the time) into the work you're doing with your T could help release you from some of the intensity/frequency of the thoughts..........???
But some of those thoughts may be worth writing down for later reference.........maybe they could validate some feelings, help you with a little more self exploration, give you some basis for thinking about ways to make things a little easier to cope with...........???

And fantastic (!! ) that you're holding onto who you are and staying true to yourself, not compromising that for others, because you have every right to feel really proud of the person you are!!!
You ARE an incredible person!!



Alison