I think you bring up a good question... It's one my T and I have discussed, which is essentially, how long does a person have to live in pain, what is the answer?? If a person has been suffering with major depression for x amount of years and in that time there were only brief periods of reprieve, say 3 months total in 5 years and have tried almost everything, is it okay then??

To anyone reading this, I'm not advocating anything, simply I have contemplated this as well..

I know depression lies to us, in your case it sounds like you can't find your own value in the world... Depression tells us we don't have any... We do, we all have value and sometimes we have to dig really deep to find it... I'm a mother and a wife,.my value was tied up into that for so long that I essentially disappeared into myself.. Ive had to essentially find myself, as corny as that sounds because it wasn't enough for me to live just because I have a husband and kids... I know that sounds callous and selfish, it is..but depression doesn't make logical arguments...

When was the last time I was happy that had nothing to do with my roles as a mom or wife? It had been a long time.. That isn't to say I'm skipping down the yellow brick road as progress is slow and sometimes moves at a snails pace.

life is a beautiful lie