I guess my big issue is how to explain to our Master who runs the program why I'm taking time off. I've been there for nearly 4 years, and I'm an advanced student. He is big on commitment. I respect him, and he respects me. I don't want to lose that respect, and I don't want to have to answer questions from either him or anyone else why I'm not coming for a time. (Also, I would still be there at least twice a week to deliver/pick up the kids for their classes and would have to see people from my class then.)

Our Master seems to be a fairly intuitive person when it comes to where people are mentally/emotionally - when I'm in an off state, he picks up on it and asks if I'm ok or asks me to smile. He's kind/teasing about it, but it's hard for me because I'm intensely private about my emotional state(s). I have a hard time discussing where I am with my husband, let alone anyone else.

Sometimes I'm concerned that I'm there so that I can avoid addressing where I am internally with anyone, my husband included.

ElsaMars & zepchic, I'm sure I could take the break, but it's been a long time since I've noticed feeling neutral in mood; I'm not sure when I could make a decision like this without being influenced by where I am in my ups & downs. Sometimes I feel like I'm stable, and then a single, tiny thing will throw me deep down; that leads me to think I'm not really stable leading up to that, which makes me question how to trust/identify when I can rely on myself to be making that decision objectively.