you boy friend will not judge you for this...
you are lovely person...
he loves you...
he will comfort you...
this will noe make you look bad to him...
you are a strong beautiful person to him....
he cares very much... and will support you in many ways...
he will not think you are dirty... he will want to help...
try to face the fear... you are stronger than yoi think....
you are an amazing person...