Thanks everyone for answering

Freewill: I know my body is my own but since I hate being this weight anyway my dad's criticism makes it worse. Extra weight doesn't suit me: I am only 5ft tall and I am an apple shape. He is quite right that I need to lose weight, and I know I need to, but I am scared of starting to lose weight. I've been binging too, and I am scared of the effects it will be causing on my body, and since I put my body under so much strain last year to get down to my lowest weight, I don't want to try losing again, because I find it so hard to stick to any sensible regime: I soon get obsessed with and scared of calories and soon cut down to the very minimum. So basically I feel quite stuck.

Razeljenny: I don't really understand your post but I don't really eat because of my dad, I eat more to comfort myself I think, usually at night before I go to sleep, when I am in bed reading or working...

Soidhonia: I know how to lose weight and eat a healthy diet, I just find it hard to control it because I can all too easily start restricting instead I also know the calories of all the foods I eat and how much I should be eating, the main problem is I either eat below it or way above it I have visited that website before though and it has some good recipes, so thank you My weight isn't caused by thyroid, it's definitely from binging...