Do you consider yourself a perfectionist? If so, in all aspects of life?
Do you ever procrastinate because you haven't found the best/perfect way to do something?
I'd say I am a perfectionist when it comes to my own work. It can be little things, but still more when it comes to consequential decisions, taking a long time to find the best approach. It may be considered procrastinating sometimes, but I think as long as only do it when things really matter, it's fine.
I used to be unable to do much when not hypomanic or manic or be perfectionist about small details nobody else cares about.
Having to make a product/service that has to be good enough, better than the competition, but not too good, so that it may be improved later, and not too costly, maintaining a positive cash-flow, helps. There has to be customer/user rather than me working in a silo of some large organisation I have little influence on. I have to see the final result of my work and see it as something quantifiable.
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