Dear Angel87:
I fear that you will NEVER have inner peace or sancuary until you spill your guts out to someone trained to deal with this. It will eat you up inside and you will one day turn that anger in on you!!! I wouldn't want that to happen to you. He was WRONG. Accept that and go on with the help you need. It wasn't your fault. He should have respected you as his friend first, then as a gentleman. He's not crying
over you, is he? And he won't!! He's just being a class A jerk who thinks he can get away with anything. It won't be the last time, angel, he'll do it again to some other unsuspecting "friend". Count on it. Save yourself. Let him take responsibility for HIS actions. You'll feel better when you do.

Take care!!!