Thread: Treating DID
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Old Apr 23, 2016, 03:58 AM
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Right, I think I understand more what you mean, now.
Sorry - I have real problems expressing what Im thinking. It never ever comes out right. This has been a reoccurring and desperately frustrating theme throughout my life. If my T just said 'allowing more emotions in your life now, will help you express yourself more clearly' I would be a lot more amenable about doing it!

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It does get easier over time... once the new-ness of it all dies down a little.
Thanks - I really do hope so! I think my biggest beef isn't that Im going through this - its that I definitely didn't want this to happen, and my T has brought it about over the months without my permission. Not being in control of my own head is bad enough, but it feels like he is in control of it. I hate that. If he'd have said 'You turned off your sense of smell? Well, lets turn it back on again. It might be a bit shocking at first, but Im here for you to talk about it, and I'll support you as you re-enter this strange and often highly disturbing new world of odour!'.

But he didn't. It was reintroduced really subtly, with little conversation, and then there it is and Im dumped in this smelly new world and it doesn't feel like theres any appreciation of the need for support whilst I go through it. And I really didn't want this to happen anyway! I've got enough on my plate without this stuff. And I know Ive concentrated on smell here, but I could give ten other examples of 'everyday' stuff he's brought about. I wish I had more control over what is, and isn't worked on.