Hello (((DEBBIE))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time with your depression. I hope that you will contact your therapist to discuss how you can possibly feel better in the future with a plan to help you move on and feel better at least a little more consistently that you do at this time. I volunteer for in the community a few weeks a month and it helps me to stay grounded and be thankful for things in life. I am not sure if you work but Volunteermatch is always in need of resourceful people to help someone else less fortunate in the communtity in your area. Volunteering also gives you a sense of purpose that you are helping someone else tohelp themselves, or animals if that is what you choose to do if you volunteer. Perhaps you are just looking for your rewards in life and are feeling a void in that needs to be filled in your life at this time. I hope things get better for you soon Debbie. Take care and best wishes, Soidhonia