I'm glad this conversation has been somewhat helpful for you �� Unfortunately my partner finds that happy memories seem to drag the bad in behind them. And he too ends up laying awake eaten up by sadness. But I am glad to hear it sounds like you have therapists that help you �� Touch wood you'll find something that sparks off more positive memories again if you do find out where Susan got the idea of experimenting with ' facials ' would still be interested to know ��