3 more sleeps until I see you. I appreciated your email but I have been starting to wonder if things were easier with you on the other side of the world. I think I know why though because I just shut the boxes and started getting on with my life of solitude. Not the life I want but the easiest life to live. Why am I so scared of being hurt? You know why, because of the bad bad places it took me to last time. I promised myself I would never go there again but I have come close again since starting this journey. It just confused me so much I end up going round and round in circles until my head is spinning and I can't see how to make it stop unless I just shut everyone and everything out. I think I will discuss this new T with you this week and the reasons I didn't like working with the other one after all. Then I think I won't see you the week after but maybe the week after that for the final session, all being well with new T. I think it is time. I don't want it to end at all but I think I am starting to accept it now and so there seems little point in dragging it out. Hmmm. I am not sure I have any more to say to you really, but then I have everything to say. Is it because there is no point? I just don't want to end this with anything hanging over but I think that it impossible. There will always be things unsaid because of the nature of therapy. Oh well. See you Tuesday.