by processing things, for me it involves realizing that things are going to come up that will not be easy for me, feeling things from the others, not having links to feelings, some new memory pieces that leave me questioning things, etc. so, i know things will come up, it will make me uncomfortable, but i know it will be helpful in the end for me.

where things do affect me (not really related to therapy) are daily triggers that are random and cause dissociation at least once a day usually for a few hours.

i can see how it would bother you going through this where it wasn't your choice. i guess i misunderstood that, sorry. it would have me very on edge and would probably cause mistrust between myself and the psychiatrist i see.

at the same time, for healing to happen, it does sometimes involve difficult times and things we don't always want to face. some things can be triggered without knowing it even if a person tries to tread lightly. so, i think trying to find ways you can cope with it as best as you are able is important until it lessens.

i have learned that not everything stays the same, so things definitely can improve for you too.

if you feel the therapist you are working with has gone too fast for you, maybe it would be best if you bring it up with him if you haven't already. it's important to be on the same page so you can be better helped and have that trust.

my psychiatrist not once pushed me to talk about any trauma or the others. she has been super patient for many years which i am thankful for in some ways. the goal with me is to stay as stable as possible while working through things. but we'll see how that goes as things haven't been so stable even in general the last while.