Hello psychoticcr7: Well... from the Skeezyks' perspective... if you have one good friend... you're not doing too badly. (The Skeezyks has never had any.) Friends come, & friends go. Some may be good friends. But many will just turn out to be passing acquaintances, or even rivals, as you mention. So, from the Skeezyks' perspective, perhaps it would be best to simply try to focus on other things... whatever you have in your life that is important... schooling, career, etc. & try to avoid getting caught up in worrying about how many friends you have. Friendship isn't something one can force, from the Skeezyks' perspective. It either happens or it doesn't.

As far as the anger goes, what the Skeezyks does is to lean into it, breathe with it, perhaps even smile to it, & then let it dissipate at it's own pace. Your anger has no power over you beyond what you cede it.