So I had a really good session with t. I cried when I told her I was afraid she was mad at me, and while I was telling her how sorry I am for the stuff I read to her last week and for all the texting and emailing in between, and she said of course she was not mad and that I had nothing to be sorry for and she cried a tiny bit too I noticed. She asked what was going on between us, where the push-pull was coming from. I told her the stuff I figured out about projecting stuff about my mother on her. And that I recognized the "I'm not good enough" complex had been activated again. Related to my mother and within my marriage. And we talked most of the session about my marriage and about money. She made a kind of peculiar-sounding comment today. She said "sometimes you're so stubborn. But today you're soft and open." What I was, was feeling very vulnerable. Anyway, she's not mad and she's not kicking me out and we're going to do some more energy work soon, which I'm glad for, I find it very relaxing. I am so relieved!!