t,

glad we can talk on the phone on wednesday. its gonna be a hard week next week. i just have to keep telling myself that overall i dont want to do drugs.

there is something i need to tell you but i dont know if i will



im hoping when my roommate gets back i wont do it anymore. having this disorder and keeping it a secret makes it grow an d grow. im not sure if i want to tell you though... i guess if it doesnt stop when she comes home i will. i want help, but i know its ultimately up to me to just ****ing stop doing it. when will i ever grow up

me