Hello, If you are NUTS then so am I and a million others out there ,,,I think that we are OK, it's them lol ,,,,I know for me ,I put everything I have into a relationship ,I wont give up untill I feel it in my heart that it is over...I think the others are right that we are so afraid to let go and of being alone ,,,but as I always say" ONE MANS JUNK IS ANOTHER MANS TREASURE" your story sounds so familiar ..I have moved on and I still love him and we see eachother but with each breakup I am starting to see alittle more of what is out there that I'm missing,,,just take oneday at a time ...keep yourself busy that helps me ...he hates it when I'm not around for him ,,,someday we will find mr right and we will see how much time we wasted on mr wrong ...Remember that Your not crazy just human ,,,take care ,,,Bee..p.s good luck I hope you keep posting so we can see how you are doing