Butterflygirl I'm sorry you've been triggered by this book. I'm sure you are not alone. (I won't be reading it, nor commenting on the issue it concerns.)

That you went through that horrible treatment is so sad. I wish there had been someone in your life to have helped you see the precursors to such behavior by abusers. No one deserves abuse. No one.

I'm also sorry to hear your T can't accept calls between visits. Have you tried a free hotline? I think talking the feelings over, the triggers and sorting them out with someone will help you ease out of this more quickly.

You are safe now? Right? You are not in that relationship now. Yes, someone (your son) failed you when you called for support, but perhaps he didn't realize the repercussions of the discussion and your needs. But you are safe. The abuse isn't happening now. Those are memories of bad times, yes.

Try to not listen to the news for a while...days at least.... as this issue will be a hot one for awhile imo. Shield yourself from continued triggering. Make sure before you go to bed at night that you think about good things and sweet thoughts...to help you have good sleep without interruptions.

Keep telling yourself, it isn't happening now, you are safe now. ((((((safe hug)))))