Thank you for your replies. It's still a hard place to be.

I'm thinking that compliance has had a reality wake up. Can't explain that.

I love to put my earphones on and cut the grass. I love the smell and it's mindless. I kept hearing "how did I get here?" In relation to my healing.

Something is happening that I think I don't understand.

Compliance has always made everything ok and has done its job. I believe it's "waking up" and having a "what the heck has been going on" episode.

I'm going through the motions. Looking normal.. I hope, with a freak out happening inside of me.

HOW did I get to this place!!???

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