Hi ((((Sandy)))) What did I miss? Where is the antidepressant in your lists of meds?

I know this feeling you talk about... even though never have freedom from depression, I do know when the depths of it are impending their doom... Alas, I am unable to take most meds, so I'm alone... with my T too, of course.

With regards to meditation, do you have a visual mind? If so, try to only "see" a blank area... like a clean chalk board... and think NO thoughts. Or even clouds or a peaceful scene... but think NO thoughts...

by that I mean, when a worry comes into your mind, or a thought about someone or something, tell yourself no, and focus back on the chalk board or scene. It will work better and better and be easier and easier to do in a few real tries.