I am 20 years old and now I am only just coming to realize just how behind I am in learning street smarts. I was someone that chatted to every random male on facebook and even added them as friends it was only after I got verbally abused by this guy because I would sleep with him that I came to realize just how dangerous it is to talk to random people and how easy it would be for them to get my address, my credit card information. I almost can't believe just how naive I was and it's a shock everyday looking back on that behavior that was only just a year ago but I guess I can't be that hard on myself I lived a chaotic childhood, I never learnt how to think and judge things myself because I was usually at home all time just watching my parents fight like lions. It still does frustrate me and I feel stupid for not knowing a lot of things and in a way I feel upset with myself for being so naive that I was so innocent to think I'd go to a male friends house and he wouldn't want to sleep with me. It didn't even cross my mind how could I be so stupid so naive? Then I'd blame myself for not knowing that and then I'd blame myself for them touching me and also not knowing that any unwanted touch is also considered a crime. I only thought rape was considered a crime. I was so stupid so behind everyone else and that was why I was being shitted out in the world I didn't have street smarts to save my own life I was innocent like a child and that was my weakness. I had always wanted to stay a child but I realize that I can have the innocence of a child and the street smarts of an adult. I guess I should not be upset with myself it wasn't my fault I didn't know