Look back at your first sentence. You are *newly diagnosed* and you need to discuss medication options with your doctor. You are only at the beginning of treating your bipolar, which means it will only start to get better with treatment. It may be rough at first if some medications don't work, but inevitably and eventually, your doctor will find the right treatment to make your life easier. No, you will probably never have a "normal" life where you feel stable all of the time, but with treatment, things CAN get a LOT better! You will eventually start to feel like your moods are more under control, and you will know how to manage them with CBT (cognitive behavior therapy). Chin up! Things will get better for you.

Meanwhile, educate yourself about bipolar disorder. Are you diagnosed as Bipolar 1 or Bipolar 2? Do you have any other illnesses like anxiety? Try to find reliable sources that will help you understand your illness and how you can manage it with self-care (along with treatment from your psychiatrist). Keeping a regular schedule, good sleep habits, healthy eating habits, regular exercise, staying away from alcohol and other addictive substances, etc. are all good things you can control. We can't control everything, but we can control those things.

Please be encouraged that now that you are starting treatment, there is hope that your life will get a lot better. We're all here for you.