Hi sunbeem,

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time
I'd say that you had a VERY understandable reason for cancelling your session..........the weight of the depression, and maybe as well some of the thoughts it brought along, right??!!
Depression can hold you back, pull you down, cut you off, cut off opportunities/options SO MUCH so.
And please don't see it as stupid, that's just one step away from seeing yourself as stupid..........one of the many lies depression can tell you...........you were/are understandably struggling

And, yes, you're absolutely right, it might be good if you could get "to the place" where you're able to go.........maybe we could try to help you to getting "to that place", towards booking another appointment, towards being able to go??

So..........do you want to talk about it a bit.............maybe there's "stuff" that's triggering or not helping the way you're feeling............maybe there's some manageable goals we can set for you..........maybe it's changes in medication you need...........???

And if it is real hard, and there's no way right now you're going to make that therapy.........at least some other coping resources, hey??
Such as phoning hot/crisis lines, finding some coping strategies for now that might work for you/help you get "to that place".........talking to us about it a bit more...............

We're here for you sunbeem, you're not on your own

Alison