Loneliness can give the illusion that the past was better than its actuality.

You had expressed an awful time with involvement with him. His relationship after you is a roller coaster of instability. Sounds like a pattern of relationship behavior?

Do you believe that you're the only one with a MI in this situation?

Perhaps you're too busy now with your daughter to be out in the dating field, hence resorting to feeling not even worthy of your exes interest??[emoji780] having medication weight sounds like self depreciating talk.

I agree about distractions. Find a hobby or volunteer opportunity to get yourself involved and out there. New friends, perhaps? How's your work relationships?