I am 21. I struggled with severe depression for a year. I actually was admitted in the hospital because it got so bad. I am now on 40mg of Prozac, and while it works wonders, I still struggle with my thoughts. I almost lost my friends to this. My family distanced themselves. I lost myself to this. When it got really bad I got desperate to do anything new. I needed a change. I applied and attended school. It gives my life meaning. I am done with this semester in two weeks. I am a certified dog groomer and I own a business out of my house but I don't keep that busy.... I am trying but I don't have a successful business, which makes me feel like a loser. I can't get another job because I have two vacations planned and paid for that I cant miss.
All of my friends have jobs and other friends. I have two friends and they are both so busy I will never see them. I feel like such a loser! Ugh!
I am afraid of summer break. I am afraid of old thoughts and habits coming back. Yes, I am on meds but I am afraid that wont be enough. I don't ever want to feel as hopeless as I did. I don't want to live my life in fear of relapse. Any thoughts? Advice?