Thank you guys, I do have guilt about cheating on him. But I have to look at the facts and the facts are is that he isn't a good person and he hasn't changed obviously because he is having relationship problems. I am lonely I haven't been in a relationship for a year and a half. I would love to have a family but I'm so insecure because of my weight. I've been turned down a lot. Plus it's hard to explain to someone why you take medicine for voices in your head without seeming crazy.