Hi Rachelakabatman,

I'd say that you're recognising a reality, that no-one can guarantee depression won't return I'm afraid
But you know, maybe you could start by turning some of that recognition into an actual tool to help, because recognition can be really useful, and might actually help.........
You are already probably a lot more in control than you think in hopefully reducing the chance of it being so bad, or for so long............
You know it might happen, so you can be much more aware of the starter signs (although I know that sometimes it can come "from nowhere" full force.........sometimes not......) and maybe seek help before it "hits that point"'.........I mean sometimes there can be "smaller" signs" that people might otherwise "brush off" like changes in appetite or sleeping patterns, a little less motivation...........but now you know...........and maybe there are plans of strategies or support you could have in place for IF.............

And..........."I own a business out of my house but I don't keep that busy...." you know that might not actually be so bad right now, might be good, might actually be exactly what you need right now
A busy business can bring a lot of stress..........and perhaps you need a bit more time for "you", for some more recovery??? If you want "busier" in general though maybe there are some personal activities you could add to your "schedule"???
And just because the business isn't busy doesn't make it unsuccessful............make your own definition of "successful"!!!
It could for now be a very successful small business/startup project..........which could gradually lead to something bigger when/as you're ready.........it's just really impressive that you've found a way, on your own initiative, to put some of what you've learnt into practise with a view to really refining those skills!!!

And, you're right, maybe a bigger, better, more diverse social (or/and support.......) network might well help a bit...........I don't know whether you could start on developing some of those older or family relationships a bit more/again?? Or a few new activities you could try in networking??
But try to look forward to, and enjoy the vacations as well if that's a possibility, it definitely sounds like you've deserved some vacations!!!!

Alison