Hi lovemeformexo,

I am sorry you've been rejected, and I can imagine that's only added to your insecurities
But you know, anyone who's going to just judge you on your appearance (whether that would be you were thinner, larger, short haired, long haired.......whatever!!) isn't worth being in a relationship with anyway..........you're exactly right.........you should be valued, loved for you.........so maybe see those as lucky escapes
You want/need/deserve someone who sees/loves you for you!!
But naturally there will be guys who will really like your appearance anyway, as well as you!!!
As for the medicine to help with the voices...........that might not be as hard as you think to explain to some people..........there's a lot more knowledge about issues like that out there now-a-days............and for a lot of people the word "crazy" is never going to come into the/any equation.........
And even if you didn't have the voices........would you really want to be with someone who insisted on seeing people with mental health issues as "crazy"??!!!!
Not really relationship material in my eyes!!!
For general telling people/explaining though...........I'm sure you'll find lots of ideas/tips on here

Alison