Hi sunbeem,

Really glad for you that it went OK
Let's call that an achievement in how you handled it, right??!!
And Dexter is absolutely right.........your own welfare is the most important right now..........so go at your own pace........go with what you can cope with
And your husband.........well it wouldn't be fair of him to expect you to do more than that, right??!! Which he might even be very well aware of anyway if he's understanding.
Maybe one way around things like this though..........if you felt you might have to explain your feelings more than you were comfortable with at the time to him..........could be having an agreement with him that he'll check with you prior to inviting people over as to whether you feel OK with this. And ultimately it is your home, your space too.......so it might be seen as respectful anyway.
I know that might not help with the other times things are hard, the rest of the time things hit you ..........but you do need to do what's right (or at least what might make things just a little easier) for you..........and that includes reaching out for support to your husband if you can..........to us........just reaching out when you need to........
And not forgetting..........well done again for the achievement!!!