Sweet - When an sober alcoholic falls off the wagon for one night, the next morning they have two choices. They can throw away all that sobriety, and just keep boozing, or decide they'd rather crawl back up onto the wagon. It's a choice, but NOT an easy one. Typically getting sober takes reaching out to others, calling for help, etc. So does not SI'ing. I hope you are able to stop hon, for your own happiness and safety. Please take care of yourself.

(((SweetC)))

Aunt Emmy